Redha & Let It Go

Entry # 26

For the past 14 months, I have been going thru another phase of life. Life is not just having the good times and sweet memories. Life is more than that. I do admit that at times before this, I don't really bother to the needs of "attention, love and care" for others. But I'm so glad that ALLAH granted me this "difficulties" in order for me to step back and rethinked of what life is all about. It makes me realize that life is so fragile and needs to be treasured. Don't take things for granted and having the thought that "I'll have the time/do it later". Times flies and there is no U-turn to it.

Qada' and Qadar - it's easy to say than done. All this while, I dont really take a deep look into the meaning of Qada' and Qadar until I met this wonderful person. Her words of encouragement and advices really touches my life. I must admit that she really knows the difficulties I'm going through and by talking to her I felt so reliefed. She makes me realise that like is not just wanting something but it's more to giving. I must learn and accept the reality of "Let It Go". Until you let it go, segalanya akan dipermudahkan...InsyaALLAH. Along the journey, lately, I'm faithed to meet and know "new good people". Mungkin ini salah satu rahmat ALLAH to me.

Hidup hanya sementara dan atas sebab itu kita harus belajar untuk menerima seadanya dan redha. Yang penting belajar untuk muhasabah diri atas apa yang berlaku. Hikmah Allah S.W.T terlalu luas dan besar maksudnya. Tidak terjangkau oleh akal. This morning, one of my good friend smsed me - "Ave, it's hard to find a nice fren like u..ALLAH sayang pd org yg baik, tabah dan ikhals mcm u...InsyaALLAH balasan di atas kebaikan dan keikhlasan u to yr parents akan dibalas dgn cara lain..cnthnya u dikurniakan seorang anak yg cantik, bijak, ikhlas dan menceriakan hidup u dan razwan in fact the whole family. That's the biggest gift from ALLAH S.WT". Yes, I do admit that ALLAH sentiasa merahmati hidupku. Walaupun dugaan yang diberi sangat berat tetapi aku percaya ALLAH tidak pernah kejam kepada umatnya. Seorang sabahat ada menitipkan sepotong ayat - "sis...ujian itu tandanya kita disayangi. berbahagialah menjadi hambanya yang disayangi".

Ya ALLAH, besar sungguh rahmat-Mu..dikala Kau beri aku ujian ini, Kau rahmati hidupku dengan limpahan kasih-Mu, Kau panjangkan persahabatanku bersama mereka yang bergelar SAHABAT dan Kau sentiasa Maha Mendengar dan Maha Mengetahui. Maha Suci Allah sesungguhnya aku bersyukur dan merasa begitu kecil diri ini.

Kau tetapkanlah imanku dan aku masih dahagakan kasih dan sayangMu Ya ALLAH. Kau berilah keteguhan iman dan hidayat-Mu pada ibuku dalam beliau mengharungi dugaan dari-Mu. Sesungguhnya segala yang Kau takdirkan pada ibuku, nescaya tersurat sesuatu yang indah. Kau kasihanilah ibuku dengan rahmat-Mu, ampunilah dosa-dosanya dan terimalah amalannya. Panjangkanlah usia ibuku agar beliau dapat terus beramal kepada-Mu, Ya ALLAH. Amin....